Day 1: If only troubles melt like lemon drops…

“The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” (Psalm 34:18 )

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09.00 AM – Waiting for turn to see the dentist

Life has been a long winter – cold, desolated, silent, and everything is hybernating. I’m mentally hybernating. Or am I a walking zombie? I still function even though I struggle to. I do manage to get out of the bed even though sometimes with tears of purposelessness. I haven’t been taking good care of myself. I want to get better. I want to rediscover life and its purpose again. May God have mercy on my broken soul.

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01.00 PM – Lost in a book store

I’m wondering around a book store, looking for nothing I know. Lost. Now, I’m hearing ‘Somewhere Over The Rainbow’. I remember in ‘You’ve Got Mail’ there was a scene when Meg Ryan’s character reminisce how she used to dance with her mom as a little girl. Tears are welling up, I can’t prevent them. The song says something about troubles melting like lemon drops. Is it a hopeful song or is it hopeless?

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03.00 PM – A difficult question

How do you learn to accept that people may like you then leave you nevertheless; that people can still dislike you although you’ve tried your best to win their hearts; that the choices you make will define how people see you; that you can’t please everyone; that you are not perfect and do not have to be; that you can’t make people stay unless it’s their own decisions to do so; that the only things that are never changing are GOD’s love and faithfulness?

Most Christians know all that. But how do you live the knowledge?

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