Day 4: A new beginning and reconciliation

“She will chase after her lovers but not catch them;
she will look for them but not find them.
Then she will say,
‘I will go back to my husband as at first,
for then I was better off than now.’ ” (Hosea 2:7)

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06.30 AM: The sun is golden

I woke up fine today. The long road to the truth about myself, my life, and GOD has taken me to a deeper understanding of the Lord. I have peace again now. I don’t fear facing life anymore and getting out of bed is no longer a problem. The sun was brightly yellow, has always been and is golden as usual. My life is rebooting.

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01.00 PM: Another honeymoon with Jesus

I remember the story of Hosea, whose adulterous wife represents how Israel rebelled against the Lord and worshipped idols. Well, I am that adulterous wife too. I have grieved Him for not trusting Him and for being unfaithful, trying to substitute Him with my own idols. But, I have learned my lesson now. The sacred place in my heart cannot be fulfilled by anything other than Him. My peace is when I finally accept that He is the only source of my peace and joy and nothing else.

It’s another honeymoon with the Lord now. I would like to put things right with Him first, before anything else. I want to learn to trust Him and thus love Him truly. I want to be the person He intended me to be. I want to live the life He has always wanted me to have. I want to experience the peace and the joy He has always had in store for me.

Jesus, I love you.

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