“There is surely a future hope for you,
and your hope will not be cut off.” (Proverbs 23:18 )
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07:00 AM – Fearing the unknown future
The power struggle in my department has made me secretly worried. Yes, honestly, I’ve also been feeling insecure. For reasons I do not know, my boss has not been outright honest to me about what he is really planning by promoting the two team leaders. The promotion announcement stated that they are to report to my boss, with matrix to me. But, there hasn’t been any clear direction from him. I do have responsibilities beyond heading the current section, which has helped me feeling a bit confident with my future in the company.
Still, I woke up thinking about what would become of me. I let worries creep into my mind and ended up fearing for my future and even doubting whether it would be safe to start buying a house on mortgage. I even thought of what to do to earn money and decided that writing the book I planned to write was even more significance with the current situation. On the other hand, I felt that I was capable of surviving the organizational changes in the company. I had an acknowledged project management skills and I had initiated many improvements for my section.
Well, in the end, I felt better in the knowledge that whatever will happen in the future, GOD will be there for me. He will provide and sustain me. My future is safe in His hands and my hope will not be cut off. After that, ideas for my job started to come out and the next thing I knew, I was well re-motivated! Praise the LORD!
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07.30 PM – Contently Busy
It’s been quite a busy day at work. Once you’re fired up, you can see many things that you can do to improve here and there. I really enjoy this. I put my ideas into initiatives and things are rolling on. It’s great! I am enjoying work again; something I hadn’t been able to do for the past year out of depression. May GOD bless my initiatives and help me focus at work.
Well, the last 39 days have been some of the best times in my life. It may not have the thrilling excitements of romance. It may not have the satisfied feeling of achievements. It may not be what the world considers as wonderful time! But, it is a wonderful time. Only in the understanding of the depth of my emotional problems will one know that this point, this very second in my life is definitely a wonderful time. I have peace now, even when I am not sure of what tomorrow brings.
And I owe it all to GOD.
Now to the King eternal, immortal, invisible, the only God, be honor and glory for ever and ever. Amen.
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