“Can a mother forget the baby at her breast
and have no compassion on the child she has borne?
Though she may forget,
I will not forget you!
See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands;
your walls are ever before me.”
- Isaiah 49:15-16
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I haven’t been updating this blog for ages! I have been so engrossed in work and I haven’t really made time to reflect and think and blog. And that has dried me up inside. My soul is dried up.
I travel more this year for work. I like traveling, but business trips are different. They are rather cold, if you know what I mean. Your mind is set for working, not enjoying the sights. That makes a whole lot difference and it tires you quicker than leisure travel. Most of the time, I am not homesick. I am a born wanderer and I do not even mind getting lost on my own with my bad sense of direction. But, these business trips make me homesick. It is not the regular homesickness though. It is a different kind of homesickness.
When you travel and work at the same time, it takes so much out of you that if you are not compensating it properly psychologically and mentally, you get dried up, dehydrated inside. That is what I feel. My soul is dehydrated. I am a deer wandering away from my habitat and I have a thirst in me that only the Lord can fulfill. I am longing for that home in Heaven, where I can be in His presence forever in peace. I am homesick and in my aloneness, I am afraid that He might forget me.
But, His Word comforts me. My name is engraved on the palms of His hands. He never forsakes me. And in the sea of egos that is the corporate world, He comforts me. There is One who is true and holy and perfect. There is One who loves me unconditionally. There is One who completes me: The Lord Jesus.
May 14, 2011
Thanks luv for this blog I always thought I was the odd one out all my friends married some one kid others two and you know I have been achristian girl looking for the one for so long I started to believe he didnt exist started getting the idea that the Lord sent him and I turned him down .The fact is I have turned so many men down that I became trigger happy to the point now I have problems with relationships.The minute I sense a problem I get out as fast as my little legs can go .I have never felt so lonely now I pray that the Lord guide me cause in his arms I find rest I know I have been damaged but the Lord takes beat up kettles and makes them new again I still pray for that one man and I still avoid my married friends like the plague but I have hope and thats worth fighting for and thanks once again for making me see am not alone
Hi Jessie,
There are many single christians, not just women, but also men. So, you are definitely not alone. If I may give you feedback based on my limited knowledge about yourself and my observation on your comment: You seem to be not enjoying life because of the absence of a man in your life. You avoided friends because of that and feel lonely. That is not the right approach. I find my life fulfilling because I have GOD, I found a job that I like doing, and I go out with friends, married or not married. In fact, I enjoy spending times with the children of my married friends. It’s fun to be the cool auntie. Yes, people will keep asking about why I am not married. But, I do not really care about it. I give them a straight answer that I haven’t found anyone to marry. So, don’t miss out on having people, your friends and family, around who love you, just because they’re married and you’re not. In fact, don’t miss out on anything just because you’re not married. I traveled solo around Europe last year and met interesting people on the way. I meet interesting people at work too. Life is good. GOD is good. So, enjoy your life!